I am currently dealing with a difficult situation that robs me of nearly all my energy, especially my creative energy. It is also the reason why there is not much blogging going on at the moment. It is complicated and has a lot to do with my upbringing and my background and my fight against it all.
During my wanderings across blog world this morning I started thinking that my problem is really not that bad, compared with what other people are dealing with. But then I realized that in the context of my life, my personality and my here and now it is just as bad no matter how other people might see it.
I am nearly 50 years old and I am still feeling like the unwanted, unloved child I used to be. Unimportant and largely ignored. I think it is time to get out of that trap I just don't know how.
Well, I did not really mean to write all that but maybe it helps with finding a solution before I go completely nuts.